Wednesday, July 8, 2009

keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go


One day, an 18 year old girl met a 25 year old boy outside of a tim hortons in downtown hamilton.
She was sipping a cafe mocha and he was sitting with a couple friends and he came up to her, and they talked for a little while. She gave him her phone number, and he said he would call the next day. They would go out some time.
The girl got home and her brother went ballistic. You're going on a date with Owen so and so?! And the girl was confused, but she said yes, I am going on a date with Owen so and so. And her brother said she had to break it off, and do it nicely. The girl said that she would but she really had no intention of doing so.
The boy (owen so and so) called the next day and they did go out. They met at a bus station and went for a walk that lasted for 6 hours. The boy told the girl that he knew her brother, and had asked him for permission to see the girl. The brother said his sister could do whatever she wanted, he didn't care. The girl's brother was a bit of a bad guy, so she wanted to know how this boy knew him. This boy had gotten out of prison a couple of weeks ago, and he was in there for 4 years, and he knew some of the same people as the girl's brother. The girl didn't really take this well. The boy also said he had a daughter, which kind of bummed out the girl even more. And he admitted that he used to do a lot of drugs, and this really really bothered the girl. But because she fell in love with him almost instantaneously, she promised herself she would have an open mind. He made her feel so good, and so special. They moved in together after only a couple of weeks.
Then one day the boy went away for 8 months and the girl was utterly heart broken. She didn't think she could make it without him. And it was hard, it was so hard she had the number 8 tattooed on her wrist, but she made it. And one day they were together again, and it was as if they were never apart.
Things were beautiful for a long time. The girl made the boy a better person and the boy made the girl feel like a princess, and they wanted to get married. The boy bought a diamond ring for the girl, and she agreed that one day she would marry him.
A lot of time passed, and a lot of things happened, and it felt to the girl as if the world did not want them to be happy. And one day the girl felt differently. She didn't want a life that scared her, she didn't want to live with the threat of losing the boy ever again, and she didn't like the drugs. There were always drugs.
So the girl spent a couple of days away from home, and away from the boy, and it was Christmas. The day after Christmas she came home and the boy was a wreck. And he was on drugs. And she didn't see him the way she did before, because he wasn't himself anymore. The girl's world collapsed. She promised herself that she would never be with a boy who did drugs the way this boy did. So she had to leave. And it was the hardest thing she had ever done in her life, to that point.

And after all this time, the girl's heart breaks every day for this boy, and she hopes that he can one day find happiness again.

1 comment:

PorkStar said...

that boy looks like Eminem!